small window of opportunity

I don't know if it's just me but each season is starting to feel a little shorter.  Maybe it's simply that stage in my life, kids growing up, parents growing older ... more time needed to be a father, son, and husband.  I enjoy all of it and this is what I am made of, but I do wish I had more time to just go catch some fish.  I call myself a fly fisherman but sometimes I think the environment where I live makes me the type of fisherman I am... I am okay with that logic.  I have seen friends get the bug and fish like pros for years, then for one reason or another they turn to other things.  I remember thinking on a particular good day on the water, "this passion for fishing will never cease for me... I will just fish harder and harder each year".  It was both a declaration and a caution for myself but I know now that with the changing seasons spent on different waters, things change. 

I stood next to a river colored from the recent rains and wondered how many good days of fishing are ahead of me in 2012.  I was standing there in my new wet wading shoes and a fly rod ready to launch a bug.  There's more monsoon rain coming this week but I'm pretty sure I'll find myself standing at un fishable waters in the coming weeks.  I'll be thinking two things - I should have done something else today & there's got to be a way to catch fish in this chocolate colored waters.

I just felt like babbling today.


  1. Dude, why you turning philosophical on me and 쐣...

  2. ㅋㅋ I'm not. I think I underestimated how much I've changed in the past 6 years, living in suburbia. Coming back to Seoul and being around millions of people every day is stressing me out and I think I'm just trying to deal with it (although, you from NYC might not understand). Believe it or not, I miss having a big garage, not worrying about parking, and little league baseball fields. But most of all, I miss all the drive through. I think I just need a little more fishing in my life to get me through this stage. Miss you bro.

  3. I hear you. Yup, we do take things for granted. Especially the small things in life... So what kind of fisherman would you become now that you are over there?

  4. A drinking one. Let's talk this week, have some work stuff I want to get your thoughts on.